So I have started twittering. And I find it therapeutic. Trying to trace my thoughts, and now there is a way to do that. I find I don't want to share my thoughts, and twitter is a tool that facilitates that. It's the semi-publishing, or maybe pseudo publishing. It seems more real if you save your writing in a database on the net somewhere. I have a blank notebook on my beside table, but instead I'm writing with a keyboard and a laptop in bed. The notebook is dead. Long live MySQL.

I write about tools, but I fail to write. I want to write about something real, and not just feel that it's real. Take Donnie Darko, for instance. That was a real story, and this is the type of real I'm talking about. The unreal.

Let me break that paragraph for dramatic effect. My biggest fear is lack of imagination. Is not giving it a go, and committing your self to an idea. Which is why I'm trying to trace my scattered thoughts. And now there is a tool, that may fit my need to track them, and possibly help me to coral them a little bit. Thats the way I look at it. The tools I have are not perfect, but they seem to be heading in the right direction.

And there is always that thing. The next thing. Creative writing online. And just life, and living it. And documenting it. The information is stored on hard drives, magnetic platters, with long tracks of yes, no, on, off. Sector after sector of binary impulses, images, sounds, numbers, words. Thoughts, ideas, records etched into being. Details of your life, your height, the color of your eyes, your checking account balance. That's not what I came for. That's not it at all. I wanted to say, hey, I'm here, I'm alive, and have thoughts and feelings. And I'm going to save them into a MySQL database, and drink some Waikato beer, and go to bed.

At some point you begin creating your own images. We all do. Casting them out into reality, is one thing. Digging deep, pulling them from some depth of the imagination and keeping them intact, is another.

Well the thing about blogging, is you want to do it in one take, but my thoughts need some revision sometime. So keeping in a database, at least makes it somewhat more likely you might return and find it some day. Information storage and retrieval. The long dark, information storage and retrieval process of the soul.